I'm feeling a little sad and frustrated these days. I'm sure you can guess that money is partly to blame and this is true. I just want so badly to be able to bring home another precious angel. To some it may sound crazy - after all Milana has only been home for five months.
I'm not going to lie and say its always easy because its not. There are times where life is crazy and stressful and frustrating, but that is just life. It can be that way whether you have two kids, ten kids or no kids. Things are also amazing and fun and we are learning so much. Milana amazes us each and every day. She has taught us so much - the whole adoption process has taught us so much. (By us I mean not only Chris and I, but Riley, Peyton, and Karissa as well).
These days I have my eye on a precious little boy. He is so cute. I just love him. My girls LOVE him. I think Chris does too, but.....oh it all goes back to money. We all have bills and debt - well many of us do. The way I look at it is we still have more than this precious little one has.
My heart wants what my heart wants. I want a little boy. Milana would love a brother to play with. Karissa has been wanting a brother for years. Riley wants a brother. Peyton wants a brother.
There are so many orphans out there that need a Mommy & a Daddy. Here I am wanting to bring another angel home - why can't it be that easy???