Monday, November 8, 2010

A Hole In My Heart

I am feeling more and more lately like a piece of me is missing. I have been trying to figure out for such a long time why some days I just feel so blah and want to cry. And then it hit me all at once. I am missing those children that we left behind.

I can't help but think of them each day. Many of the other children we spent time with while at the orphanage have families coming for them. I can't tell you how thrilled I am about that! Whether they have families or not these children will always be a part of me. They will always have a very special place in my heart.

Maybe that is one of many reasons I feel so sad. I feel like I left my family behind. I want so badly to go back and see them. If I could take them all home I would, but we can't afford that. I just miss these beautiful children so much that my heart hurts.

I wish we could find homes for all the children who are in need of loving families. Wouldn't it be such a good feeling to know that all children have the kind of home they deserve?


  1. Jenn, beautiful post. Adopting changes your perspective, doesn't it? Maybe one day you will get to go back. You never know what God will do. :)

  2. I think Theo would be a GREAT addition to your family and I'd love to be his neighbor. :) Seriously, though, I'll continue praying for ALL of the RR kiddos to find homes quickly! It really does change your perspective when you actually see these kids with our own eyes!